This year has been one for the books. I’ve grown so much in my career, in my relationships and most importantly, I’ve acquired a new mentality and outlook on life. I’ve learned to let go of things, people and situations that no longer serve me and that alone has changed my life significantly. I’ve been completely PUSHED out of my comfort zone and to be honest, it’s addicting. The feeling you get from accomplishing something that you aren’t comfortable with is priceless. Career wise, I’ve had the opportunity to work with so many incredible brands that I love and truly stand for, and I’ve made so many valuable connections. I’ve manifested healthy friendships that helped me grow into a better person. I’m blessed to be where I am at this point in my life and I wouldn’t trade that for the world.
Just like every other human on this planet, I’ve had my ups and downs. There were moments where I felt anxious about my future, moments where I doubted myself and my abilities, moments of total insecurity, moments of sadness and grief, moments of anger and guilt towards myself and moments of confusion. None of those things have stopped me from chasing my dreams and that’s where your strength lies. Remember to embrace those negative moments and use them to help you evolve. Negative things will happen to make us resilient and teach us lessons that will help withstand other situations. It’s so important to face these moments rather than run away from them. Once you realize that, you become unstoppable.
I’m so grateful for everything I went through this year. The good, the bad, the pretty, the ugly. I’m grateful for all of it because everything has played a big role in shaping who I am today. Last night, I lost something very important, or should I say someone. My pet bird that I’ve had for 17 years passed away. It’s insane how hard it is to lose someone in your life whether it’s a human or a small pet. My bird was literally family, I grew up with it and she was there through thick and thin. As painful as it is, I realize that grief comes from the result of loving. We grieve because we love and there’s certainly nothing wrong with loving. It’s unfortunate that those two emotions tie together in some form but it’s also relieving to know that you LOVED that animal/person and that you did all you could to love them and care for them. So for me, there’s peace in my grieving. There’s peace in knowing that this is just another opportunity for me to grow and learn. There’s peace in knowing that I loved my animal and cared for it until it’s last breath. There’s peace in knowing that all the memories that we had together are stored away in my heart and mind. The greatest thing about death is that it helps us grow up. It matures us. It brings wisdom. It strengthens our bones. It teaches us to let go. Pain gives you understanding and once you come to terms with that, your mentality changes.
So I’m ending 2017 with a little bit of pain but a lot of maturity and expansion. I am beyond, BEYOND grateful for every moment and every experience life has thrown at me because it only makes me a stronger version of myself and that’s all I ever aspire to be.
Happy New Year everyone, thank you for being in my life. xx