“A bunch of cards can tell you your future? Pfftttt please, such bullshit”
There’s so much negative stigma with tarot because people think it’s directly related to black magic. I’m here to inform you all that this is certainly not true. In most people's minds, "tarot card reading" means a woman in flowing robes, leaning over a small table in a candlelit room, foretelling impending doom. But that's not really what tarot cards are about. In fact, they're not even really meant to tell your fortune or future. The most powerful sources of information come from within; the tarot aids in coming in contact with one's Higher Self. Only YOU can shape and create your own future. Tarot basically helps strengthen your intuition which then helps with decision making and just being more in touch with yourself. It’s an incredible way to read your own present energy and check in with what's going on in your life in the current moment.
So as most of you know, I love all things mystical and this kind of stuff excites me. It’s something I’ve always loved and I think I get most of it from my maternal grandmother. She use to have a deck of tarot cards and I never really understood what they were. I remember seeing them and thinking they were just plain old cards that you can play go-fish with. I never bothered asking either, all I knew is that my grandma was ridiculously good at using her intuition and she was always right about everything. It was insane and scary how accurate her predictions were and how powerful and intuitive she was without even realizing it. When she passed away 7 years ago, I think the cards got thrown out because I never saw them again. My dad use to ask her everyday for a Turkish coffee reading which is having your fortune told from the leftover coffee grounds in the cup. He’s not a firm believer in tarot or anything metaphysical so for him to actually believe my grandma was mind-blowing to me. It was interesting watching my grandma use her magic and being in such close contact with her made me feel so secure.
I’ve always believed that there is a higher being, an energy source that guides us and helps us in every step of life. You can call it God, The Universe, Source Energy. You can call it anything you want. It’s there and it’s always guiding you and looking out for you. At times life might get rough, but those are the moments that the Universe is telling us something. It’s looking out for our well-being, it’s not trying to torture us. It feels good to understand this and be open to the lessons life throws at us. I’ve had my fair share of rough life lessons already and even though they may not be publicly discussed, they were lessons that completely shook me, turned my world upside down and made me feel like I hit rock bottom. Yeah, not fun at all. That’s when I got up and said fuck this, I’m making some serious changes in my life starting with my faith in God. I started following a spiritual practice and that included meditation, attending spiritual retreats, taking more care of my body by eating well and exercising, finding hobbies I was passionate about and meeting new people that were on the same vibrational frequency as me. Once I started doing all of that, my vibration started to change and I felt so much lighter and happier with life. I met an amazing human at an event back in January 2017 (almost a year ago, crazy how much changed in a year) and she is a psychic, astrologer and tarot reader. I scheduled a session with her because I felt this immediate connection and I knew she was someone I could trust with my energy. I did a tarot reading with her, and that was actually the first time I had my cards read. It was amazing how much she picked up and how accurate everything she said was. It reminded me of my grandma and in that moment, that feeling of security came back. I was so glad I took the plunge and got my cards read because to be completely honest, I was a little scared that I wouldn’t like what I would hear. I was afraid of hearing negative things. I now realize that I was scared of knowing the truth, but the truth will set you free. Tarot has been such an important tool in my life and has taught me to just go with the flow of things. Not everything is going to be perfect, not everything will be sunshine and rainbows, and sometimes you need to sit down with yourself and seriously reevaluate the things that are no longer serving you. Tarot has made me aware of those situations and instead of being afraid, I’ve learned to embrace and accept things as they are. It’s definitely easier said than done but it’s a daily practice. It’ll only get easier with time.
So I have a really insane story for you guys. It might not be all that insane to you, but it was RIDICULOUSLY INSANE to me. I know I always talk about “manifesting your desires” and “speaking things into existence” but what the hell does that actually mean?? It means you attract what you really want by visualizing it and working for it. You can visualize all you want, but if you aren’t putting the work into actually landing your dream job or dating your ideal partner, then what good does sitting on your bed visualizing do for you? To get results with anything in life, you need to work for it. That’s just the name of the game. So going back to my story, this is about how I manifested collaborating with The Fountain Tarot deck (I’ll explain a little more about the deck itself in a bit) but for now, story time!
I went to an event about 2 weeks ago and the event was a panel with the creators of The Fountain Tarot and Lindsay Mack (she’s a podcast host and tarot reader herself). When I walked in, they had a table set up in the front and they were selling The Fountain Tarot deck. Just a little backstory, I came across this gorgeous deck about 3 months ago when I was looking at different decks online. I’ve been wanting to get my own deck and start reading tarot on myself so I can become comfortable and confident enough to actually read for other people and help them find themselves. Everyone has a different preference when selecting a deck. You need to have a personal and intuitive connection when choosing one. When you find the proper deck, you will almost instantly feel in alignment with it's energy. When I saw the Fountain Tarot online, I knew immediately that I wanted it. “This is it. I need to get it”, I told myself. I ended up not ordering it because my intuition was telling me to wait. I wasn’t sure why it was telling me to wait, but the answer became clear the night of the event. I was so tempted to buy the deck when I was at the table before the event started but once again, my intuition said NOPE, don’t get it yet. The lady that was selling the cards told me “don’t worry, if you decide to buy them, I’ll be here after the event ends”. I thought to myself, okay cool I have 2 hours to decide. A half hour before the event ended, a lightbulb went off in my head. “I want to collaborate with The Fountain Tarot”. That’s it. It was decided upon. I made my final decision and I knew that I was going to collaborate with them before even asking if that was a possibility. This is something I am PASSIONATE about and I want to introduce you guys to the tools that have had a huge positive impact on my life. Once the event ended, I introduced myself to Andi Todaro, one of the creators of the deck and I asked her if it was possible to collaborate and work together. She told me “of course, but you would need to reach out to our publicist”. I felt challenged and I won’t lie, a little bit of doubt filled my mind. “Should I even do this? Or should I just buy the deck now?”, I thought to myself. I took a few deep breaths and made a deal with myself. The deal was if the lady selling the decks was still at the table, I’m meant to just buy the deck. If she leaves, that means I’m making this collaboration happen. And guess what happened? She left. She ended up leaving before the event ended. This collaboration was 10000% happening and in that moment, I felt powerful and so proud of myself. I was also so excited to get home and write the email to the publicist (Jess if you’re reading this, thank you! So grateful for you). On my way home, I took an Uber and in the Uber I was already visualizing holding the deck and reading my own cards, I was writing the draft of this blog post in my phone and I was thinking of what I would email the publicist and what she would respond. I felt so inspired and I already knew that I landed one of my dream collaborations. I got home, wrote up the email and sent it, meditated on my vision and went to bed. The next day, she responded with the EXACT words I had imagined....”we would absolutely love to collaborate with you...” WHAT. IS THIS REAL LIFE?!?!?! I was in Soho shopping when this happened and I wanted to just scream at the top of my lungs and happy dance. I thanked the Universe and I cried tears of joy. The law of attraction doesn’t play any games. When you genuinely want something, the Universe makes it happen.
I received the deck a few days ago and YOU GUYS, IT IS BREATHTAKING. Not only is it gorgeous, but it’s amazing for beginners. You don’t have to be an experienced tarot reader to have this deck. It has a beautiful minimal design and it comes with a little easy to understand booklet of what each card means and the symbolism behind them. The 3 geniuses behind the creation of this deck are Andi Todaro, Jason Gruhl and Jonathan Saiz. The story they told at the event was beautiful because each person contributed their creativity and talents to the deck. As a creative myself, it’s a great feeling when others can appreciate your work and connect with it in a deeper, more intuitive level. I can only imagine how they feel knowing that they’ve created something that not only helps others, but inspires them as well.